Daily Law of Attraction Quotation – 9/30/3012
The thoughts that you think will – wanted or not wanted – eventually become manifestation if your vibrational accord is sufficient enough… And so, you could say, as you’re launching thoughts of appreciation and things that make you feel good, that you’re filling yourVibrational Escrowfull of all kinds of things that are going to please you when you get there.
— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Sacramento, CA on Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
It is (unfortunately) apparent that the “not wanted” thoughts are still the dominant thoughts I entertain on a daily basis, and the irritability that I have been feeling these past couple of days hav served as a reminder of this but also helping me to realize this as well and trying to slow down and eventually stop the flow of “not wanted” thoughts and make the “wanted” thoughts more prominant in my day to day thinking.
And again last night I got a much needed reminder that I can only and must only depend on myself to feel good, even when I need the comfort of another, I have to realize that that “other” has to be to “Me”. The irritability had reached such a level that it was affecting me physically, so sent a text message to a friend asking if they could be online some time later last night after I got home to see them, talk, maybe get a virtual hug to try to take the edge off. Well, got no reply (which is normal) but sent another text message when I got home and I waited, and waited, and then saw they had updated photos on their Facebook page but yet no reply to my messages or coming online to talk. So, seeing this unfortunately did not help my feeling of irriatbility. And I know the next time that they will be online, I will get the usual excuses of being too tired, too busy, too sick, or something else. So again, I have to be the one who understands, who is patient, but stil expected to be their for them (and others) and made to feel guilty if I am not or fail to respond. Just like yesterday, another friend was trying to talk to me online but I was busy at work and did not see thier messages until I stopped to take a break to get something to eat. But saw in their later messages asking me why was I not responding. So why is it other’s do not understand when I am (really) busy and yet I am supposed to understand when they are busy? I know i am off on tangent today but it leads me to want to figure out how did I manifest these circumstances and drawn these persons into my life. But yet I know dwelling on this, trying to figure this out is only giving more attention to it and therefore only draw more of this to me. But when you are feeling alone and lonely, and add to that missing my son as it is only a few more days that he turns 11 months (which means 11 months since I last saw him and held him in my arms and talked to him) and working many long hours and feeling growing irritabilty and then having no one to talk to because everyone is busy or tired or some other excuse…it is very “challenging” to find the better feeling thoughts…of course not impossible….BUT VERY “Challenging”!
At least I did not have to work as was originally asked of me earlier in the week, but I am on stand-by IF needed to come to work, so I am hoping to use this time for ME and the needed inner work and also watch yesterday’s Live Workshop from yesterday again. The irritability was so “loud” yesterday that I was not able to “hear” Abraham’s message so it was more like background noise while I was busy working yesterday.
The weather is very nice today and would be good to take an long overdue walk on the boardwalk at the beach, but the Neptune Festival is going on this weekend, so not the best time to go, plus I am still on Stand By for work too, but this is something that is long overdue.
I apologize if I seemed to ramble on here on this post, but with having no one to talk with as I needed last night, I guess I “talked” some here. Thank you for listening!