The entire Universe is set up to produce wanting within you! You cannot squelch wanting. You are born wanters. Wanting is a good thing. Write that down in big letters: WANTING IS A VERY GOOD THING!

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Tarrytown, NY on Saturday, May 15th, 1999

Though it is the WANTING and giving attention more to the NOT HAVING that is the challenge to deal with and work through. For example, I think about how much daddy is wanting his son, my little man here with me BUT I “feel” more of his absence in my life than the Happiness that I would (will) feel when he and daddy are back together. It is the going  AND getting “There” mentally and emotionally and cut free the chains of “HERE” that is my most challenging obstacle and what keeps me “stuck” here wanting but not having….until I can release the “not having” and just “feel” my son “here now” and not his absence, then the wanting can become the having which will lead into better and bigger wanting and bigger and happier feelings…..

That “death do us part” thing is a protective mechanism. It says, “I don’t trust me, and I don’t trust you to be in a place where we are evoking the best from each other. And so, just to make sure, let’s promise that even if we don’t, we’ll suffer it out together.” Every law, sacred or secular, that we have ever seen in your environment has always come from a place of disconnection, from a place of protectiveness.

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Los Angeles, CA on Saturday, July 24th, 1999

Not have much to comment about this since I am not nor have ever been married….but have come close but then the facade that the person had up masking their true selves/intentions eventually fell away and then they accused me of changing where it was not me “changing” it was my “reacting” to the person that I was now seeing for the first time! But on a related subject it bothers me to see people who feel that they have to be in a relationship to be happy because they feel they cannot be happy alone when you have to be able to be happy alone first before you can be happy in a relationship…otherwise, what happens? You expect that person now to always behave and do things only to make you happy at the expense of themselves AND the relationship…..been there, done that, got the T-shirt!

Complaining about anything holds you in the place of refusing to receive the things you’ve been asking for. Justifying about anything holds you in the place of refusing to let in the very things that you’ve been asking for. Blaming someone holds you in the place of refusing to let in the things that you’ve been asking for. Feeling guilty, feeling angry, it doesn’t matter what you call it; it is a refusal, not a conscious one. You’re asking; you can’t help but ask. The Universe is yielding; it must yield. It’s a big question, folks: why aren’t you letting it in?

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Los Angeles, CA on Saturday, March 10th, 2001

Wow..and now I sit and read today’s quotation and what I wrote in the previous entry also applies here…I am complaining about the endless begging even after saying No and thus all I am doing is continuing to block the good that is waiting to flow to me…the same good that could be allowed to help this other person but my saying No and allowing myself to become irritated to their begging is just sureing up the blocks. The irony is I tried explaining that I need to and the importance of getting my financial house in order otherwise I am no good to anyone else and this was lost on them…they are too busy inflating their needs and of course I give attention to this…and the vibration continues. BUT I do know what I must do…..I just got to find something else and better feeling to focus on thus changing the dominant vibration….then I can “Let IT In!”

When you say “Yes” to something, you include something you do want in your experience. When you say “No” to something, you include something you don’t want in your experience.

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Orlando, FL on Saturday, February 15th, 1997

Work kept me busy, too busy to post even too busy to stop and have lunch….which has become normal which I am sure now sets up that vibration that I now do not get to eat lunch so “work” sets up the circumstances to not allow me time to eat lunch…even when others get time to eat, I have to continue working….but THIS is not directly related to this post….which makes me question if you tell someone “No” is that keeping a vibration active that they continue to ask/beg because my telling them “No” this keeps an active vibration where they do not “hear No!” they somehow believe that my saying No does not mean I cannot help them but that my saying No is that I am not wanting to help them, so they elevate that their needs to make them seem far greater and more dire than taking care of my financial house and yes, there is an irritation vibration with the endless begging and whining and pleading for help….so is saying No to someone apply and keeping this circumstance active in my vibration?

The discipline that we would like you to exercise is to make a decision that nothing is more important than that you feel good, and that you are going to find thoughts that feel better. Your cork floating is the only thing that is worthy of discipline.

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Silver Spring, MD on Saturday, April 19th, 1997

Now…if only OTHER’s would allow me to exercise this decision but THEY BELIEVE that ME making THEM feel good is important above all else! It is sad when I TRY to make time for myself, take that ONE HOUR walk and just to be alone with MY THOUGHTS, have had to start turning off the alerts on my personal Blackberry and leaving my work Blackberry at home because work and other’s were intruding more and more into this hour. But to come back to “sad faces” or “why are you ignoring me/not answering me/are you angry with me?” messages just shows proof that others only want me to focus my time and energy on making them feel good. The sad thing is that when I want someone to help me feel good…. every one of them is gone, busy, sick, tired, left the planet! I know that I (ME) am the only one responsible for MY FEELINGS and MY FEELING GOOD….it is just finding the freedom to be allowed separate myself long enough to make myself feed good and find better feeling thoughts….I AM RESPONSIBLE for MY VIBRATION!

An activated thought means a thought that when I think it, I have a feeling response. If you’re not having a feeling response to something, a feeling that feels good or a feeling that feels bad — the thought is not that powerful, and it is probably not a big player in your vibrational mix.

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Monterey, CA on Tuesday, March 14th, 2000

Well, at least it is “somewhat” comforting to know that ALL (well, at least most…) of the numerous random thoughts that run through my head during the course of the day…now, if only I can get affirmations to run through my thoughts at that same frequency…that these random thoughts, as long as there is not a strong emotional reaction/response then they have little to no power to affect my circumstances. Though I am sure those same thoughts repeated with great frequency will eventually have “some” impact on the day to day “stuff”. But it is the thoughts that produce that strong (negative) emotional spike that do concern me and I do try to not dwell on them or allow them to linger for any great length of time. I do seem to notice that I have more negative induced thought emotions than positive ones, which a bit of concern obviously. When I try to think about positive things, there seems to be little to no emotional reaction.response…thus also my “challenge” with my “The PLAN” entries as mentioned previously, when I have made entries they seem to lie flat devoid of any emotion. But let a negative thoughts enter my mind and all kinds of emotional spikes pop up on the radar! Something I know I must continue to monitor and work on while NOT getting too wrapped up in it that I keep the “negative thought/high emotions” vibration active.

Here for about the past month or so I have started walking for an hour between the real job and the part time job (and a longer walk on Sunday’s). I used to just come home and try to get a power nap in before going to work the 2nd job but would wake up feeling like crap and even more irritable than before I took the nap. So I started doing the walk for any hour instead as a way of 1) keeping me moving so easier to keep going from job 1 to job 2 (hoping one day my “good feelings” will manifest and allow more money to flow into my circumstances and bank account that I no longer need the 2nd job) and gives me time to myself for ME since work was intruding consuming every spare moment of the day and night. So during this time I listen to the Abraham-Hicks recordings and try NOT to think about “What-Is”. Not always successful, depends on where my vibrational level is that particular day, but that is when I focus on the path that I am walking on and The Path that I am walking on as I listen to the recordings.

Now during my walks I use several apps to monitor how far and long I have been walking so I know when to stop/have a goal for that day/evening. Well, I noticed one of the apps (mapmytracks) had a share link for Tribesports. Never heard of it nor seen mentioned on other app sites. So last night while waiting for the equipment I was working on to reset and come back online I did a search and found the site and looked around and searched under “Walking” and found a Tribe called “Walk a Journey  with Me”. And below is the description this Tribe owner posted:

Welcome to Walk a Journey with Me.. I am setting out on a new journey to a
better me. If you stumbled upon my tribe I welcome you to come join me on
a journey. Lets talk, share, give advice to find our own path of well
being. 😀

For some reason I “felt” myself being drawn to this but did not act on it as it was late, I was tired and the equipment I was working on was not cooperating. But this afternoon I was “feeling”  that pull again, so again visited the site and this Tribe. It has only about 67 members and not much recent activity as far as postings but I guess the name and its meaning intrigues me as when I am walking I am hoping that with every physical mile I walk I am also getting one spiritual mile closer/further down The Path. Have not yet made a decision on whether or not to join this site and Tribe or not but the thought is intriguing…..

A bunch of weak people, even in numbers, aren’t strong. Get a whole bunch of confused people together and see how much clarity comes out of it. In other words, you just can’t add one more confused person to the pot, and expect to get any more clarity… One—standing outside of the confused group—who is clear, is more powerful than a million who are confused.

— Abraham Excerpted from the workshop in Albuquerque, NM on Wednesday, September 1st, 2004

Now…if only I can “remove” myself mentally, emotionally, spiritually…and a lot of times…physically from these that are confised….but I know my vibration had to be such that I am NOT a vibrational match the to confused and sad masses. Late last night as I got home (after midnight again) from my second job and saw yet another “I am sad and disappointed….” message from another friend I said to myself I need to be free from all these sad people, they are sucking the lifeforce out of me and leaving nothing for me….BUT the irony is that because of how LOA works…I have to vibrationally be THERE first to be THERE physically! So to be free of sad people I have to find ways to not give attention to THEM and let their lower vibration suck/pull be down vibrationally.,..which I know I am “feeling” already, why I feel drained and moody but like the person feeling physical pain I need to find away to “feel good” in spite of those around me “leaning” on me for pity (and seeing me/wanting me to be their personal ATM) which I know my “need” for money vibration is attracting people “needing” money but they seeing me as source instead of seeing the Real Source….There  is more I want to write about this but work is distracting me/demanding my attention….but there will be more about this later as time and focus permit.