The Light is Coming by Enrico Fossati on 500px

It was not so much the photo as was the subject (name) of the photo that caught my attention….because many days as I continue others living happy and prosperous lives and enjoying life I ask when will it be my turn and when will the light again shine in my life? I have found it progressively more difficult and challenging to “see” and “feel” what I desire and the life I want to be living and enjoying and feel more and more alone these days. Granted being free of the “dead weight” of the financial and emotional leeches have lightened my load but still feel the affects of their exhausting me of my resources leaving little to nothing left for me. I have been so caught up in working and working and working more to make extra money (in fact now have less money) that I have been doing little to none of the spiritual “work” that I should be doing. I keep the books out in the open as a daily and constant reminder for what I need and should be doing, but s exhausted from the daily battles with “what-is” that I have nothing left to give time for “me” but I know this needs to changes otherwise I will only continue down this path and years from now writing the same words and complaints again…(I have already seen this in my private journaling where I get reminders of what I wrote a year ago today and depressingly see that I was writing about and complaining about the same circumstances, problems and people – so have evidence of the cycle I am “stuck” in). Now if only the time and effort writing about what is wrong in my life could be redirected to writing about the life i desire it to be as if it were already happening now….I have even entertained the idea of writing my own The Secret Success Story now to help bring more focus and attention to what I desire, want and need to hopefully wake up one day and “see” that i am already living the success story that I wrote….